our hopes and expectations/black holes and revelations

The first time I saw your face
I was blown away without a trace
I felt so alone on a busy street
when you passed me by
I felt my feet melt away
Melt away

I pray to God I could meet
Someone like the boy I'd just seen
Someone that could stop me dead
Someone that could spin around in my head all day
In my head all day

Someday I will fly with you
Someday I will fly with you

That night I saw him again
It was the first time I touched his hand
He made me feel so warm
We talked all night 'til the dawn came our way
Til the dawn came our way

But the timing was all wrong
When I met the one I should've known
Instead I walked away leaving behind my destiny on that day
My destiny on that day

Someday I will fly with you
Someday I will fly with you

But I still see his face
In my mind it's the only place
And we will meet again
And I will touch your hand again on that day
Your hand again on that day

Sunday, July 06, 2008

I am terribly bummed. By school.

The speech is really driving me nuts. Everywhere I go, my head is busy making plans for the speech. Do this? No. This? Yes, maybe. So on and forth. I still don't know whether I'm doing the right format and all. Or even if my topic is a feasible choice for a persuasive speech - 'Should people embark on diets?' I'm not even talking about diets in general, but crash diets. But everyone knows crash diets are bad for your body, so I'd feel like I'm doing a for-idiots speech if I added in the word 'crash'. Oh, damn. Oh, zut alors and triple merde. I'm having a panic black-out soon, I can feel it coming. I know I'm going to go to bits in the tutorial and screw it all up. The worst thing is that I don't know what I am going to screw up, indeed!

Calm down, calm down. Ommmm.

Another thing that is bumming me out is... CCA stuff. Fuggit, I need CCA points. I'm going into a college, damn right. My CCAs are DEAD. Oh, right, there is a photography meeting coming up soon on the 18th, but I need a weekly thing. Also I can't, for the life of me, figure out where I'm going to get points under 'leadership'. Ha, I might as well give up all hopes of even getting a bronze award. I suppose I will spend my 7-week hols doing volunteer work and the like so I can like max out my services points.

But there was so much I wanted to do. I wanted to intern for 17 mag. Also my mom is thinking about letting my sis and I go take a trip to New York and Chicago to visit our relatives. We ought to act fast before she changes her mind. And September is Gossip Girl season! I can catch them filming! Ooooh. This is weird, but I'm excited at seeing only Blake Lively, not Chace Crawford and the other guys. I don't think the GG guys are that good-looking. At all. But movies are always being filmed in NYC. So I'll definitely see more than GG in the fall.

As you can see, I am already having a nervy b.

i thought the world of you
7:47 PM